Living in here is too difficult to me

Everything is too hard.
I have gotten really big problem with car, since I came here.
Car is the most important thing to live in here.
and I got that problem.
Also I'm working hard. now It's better than before. I just have one job and one class.
Before I worked a lot because I need money to live in here.
now I don't know, if I make much more money, I have to buy a car.
and then my money will be gone, because cars always take money... to fix or check or accident or ... whatever... it's just truth.

And I don't have enough friends.
So, I couldn't get such information. It makes me feel bad. and sometimes I feel lonely.
because I had a lot of friends when I lived in Korea.
and I could get information whatever I wanted it.
But now I have much more trouble about everything, because I can't understand something which I try to do new things.
and then I disappoint by myself and think about living in here.

Now I'm becoming a negative person.
Before I think, I was not like this personality.
I hope, I am not changed anymore... but I'm not sure.
I just disappoint something when I get bad experiences.
I know, they were not my faults, they were just happenings though.
However my feel is depressed by myself... it seems like my fault.
I'm not strong enough to live in here. I'm not that person, before I thought me.
Those sound like too damn... It's me nowadays... hahahaha....
so~ sad...

let just sleep and tomorrow will be better ..
Hopefully, doing well.. everything is doing well...
T.T